Assisting a madman who probes and cuts a helpless child's genitals is not "awesome". Helping this monster while he inserts a ring around the head of the child's penis and ties a ligature around it, in order to cut off the circulation so that the remaining skin rots off, is also not "awesome". Dear Diane, you have a very twisted idea of what a good time is. Seek professional help asap.
"Imagine the lack of empathy required to find baby
screams, and baby blood, "awesome"! -SM